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I've been thinking lots this past week... n i've kinda sort out lotsa stuff... lots i really mean alot... now i feel much happy, free n carefree...=].. now wad im waiting 4 is life into the new year... plan sum new resolutions n hope n pray tat won't break any one of it b4 the end of this year.....
haiz... i've been wondering y... y izzit tat my mum alwayz calls me when im so bz wif my own stuff...n there my sis is so free surfing the net, chatting wif her frendz n chatting wif her frendz... so free down there shaking legs until it's gonna drop off or sumthin....
My mum calls me to help her take her hand bag to her, help her hold her hand bag, bring stuffs from here to there like a office boy, ans calls,......it's really frustrating... i noe she is bz... but i'm really bz too... it doesn't mean tat wad is not important to u is not important to me....i guess it's bcoze my sis hasn't been around 4 3years... n she is used to call me like crazy...maybe bcoze she is getting old, like my dad....
There was even a time which was a friday on the last day of last year....she wanted me transport my skool books from a huge box into the shelf...n my shelf is like packed like crazy lor....she kept nagging at me like crazy till i was real stress n frastated... i pulled out everything out of the shelf n dumped the whole box full of books into the shelf....she summore say"hey, be gentle wif ur books!" i told her straight i'm really frastrated....then sum how tears juz keep dropping out like a loose tap...then she come out wif her long story saying abt how she brought us up wif blood n sweat n everything n this is wad she gets....i can tell she is very stressed wif her job... but theres no use vending ur anger on me....it's juz so drama lo tat day.... dunno y i cry oso... haiz.....it's juz very memmorable n unforgetable....in the end i did a huge spring cleaning tat day.... n threw away a huge box full of "rubbish" which i used to think they were "treasure"....
I've been thinking to myself 4 a long long time...y am i like a class outcast? Wif the previous batch of friendz n the batch now in skool.... well the previous batch was very stressful as it's like hell full of criticism the whole year long... n this batch is mainly disturb here n there.... well since i handle wif criticism so easily, it's no problem wif this batch....n i've realised tat from pri.1 a young innocent n simple minded guy, i've became a guy who is able to twist n turn words to make people feel hurt, n not innocent at all...i've been thinking, if lets say my parrents never send me to any skool, n provided home skooling 4 me.... i think i'll be a super gig guy who is very simple minded n still innocent.....i guess i will be very freaked out when i find out abt my body developments...ahhaz....
Well about the problem above, i've toked to my friend abt it... n she told me tat i wasn't a class outcast....o_0??... but i'm juz too quiet n very different from the other roudy guys in class....N there were lots of gossips circulating ard which is not true.....sumtimes i wonder... am i a "Mr nice guy" which is too good to be true.... n it's bcoz of tat i cannot mix well wif the others....hmmm i feel tat theres sumthing wrong wif me ahhaz.....maybe being too nice doesn't pay off at all....well i followed the christian beliefs... must be good n holy, cannot disturb people, muz help people.... n be good n nice...... but this is wad i get....hmmm=/.... it doesn't pay off at all.....Hmmmm should i change n be a "Mr bad guy"? i'll be sheep under wolfs clothing....... hmmm......=/
Hmmm am i a guy which is very different from the other people around? I feel tat i think from a different point of view n is alwayz very different from others... n tats how i create stuff.... n maybe tats how i get the eyes of teachers to look through my projects.....for my chinese project... i once got higest in class.... but i dun have much content.... but it's the presentation which brings the teacher to the attention.....
I've tod through more stuff... but i'm real tired...i shall write abt those another day....;]
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Name : Joel Xiang Desheng P3RS0N@L!TY
Personality : Flamboyant T@g W!SH3S 3M@!l CURR3NT M00D W3@TH3R F00T PR!NTS !N 3 S@nd R@D!0 ST@T!0NS P@ST R3CORDS L!NKS
DOB : 19th May 1988
Age : 19+
Height : 1.73++m
Weight : Abt 60kg
Zodiac : Dragon
Horroscope : Taurus
Fav Sports : Breathing exercises on the bed every night(snore)
Fav colour : Blue, silver, black
Fav things : Vintage looking stuff...
Hates : People who commands me to do anything
Worst habits : Talking back, bitching...
Best Habits : Obeys house rules
How do u relax : Bitching, complaining, vibrate my ear drums with sound waves from my disc man
One thing tat no one noes abt? : i'm Sentimental...
Three words 2 describe me : Rude Noisy Freak
One liner tat i'm most proud of : Being kind to your enemy means to be cruel to yourself
Moto in life : Look 4 a goal n strife hard
