-=| Photoshoot |=-
As you can see, we were doing a storyline behind the whole fashion show. And the story line was Romeo and Juliet. And i shall end off with this poem which i've found in Deviant.
A single daisy grows alone
Alone in a field
A field of ashes and sorrow
Sorrow filling the void
The void of stillness
Stillness broken
Broken by one butterfly
One butterfly flies across
Across the ashen plain
The plain heavy with sadness
Sadness and pain
Pain sliced by black wings
Wings of the butterfly
The butterfly draws near
Near the lonely daisy
The daisy feels such hope
Hope and joy
Joy from his deep roots
Roots to his pale petals
Petals reaching out
Out to the black butterfly
The butterfly approaches
Aproaches and kisses
Kisses the only daisy
The daisy overflows
Overflows in joy
In joy unimaginable
Unimaginable and never felt
Never felt before by the daisy
The daisy sheds a tear
A tear that would be his last
His last goodbye
Goodbye to this world
A world so cruel
Cruel and yet kind
Kind black butterfly kisses
Kisses of both joy and pain
Pain to a death
A death neverending
J O E| 9:26 PM |
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-=| Back stage preview of our Fashion Show... |=-
The focal point is my back, it was patched worked with pockets.
J O E| 8:16 PM |
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-=| Withdrawing myself. |=-
J O E| 1:56 AM |
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-=| Do i have type A Personality? |=-
| You Have A Type A- Personality |
You are one of the most balanced people around Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you. When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love! You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds |
J O E| 1:54 AM |
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-=| Am i Extensively Obsessive? |=-
| You Are 24% Obsessive |
 You tend to have a few obsessive thoughts, but you generally have them under control. Sometimes your worries keep you up at night, though they usually don't interfere with your life. |
Omg... I am a little...
Omg... I've done these quizes "obsessively"... i need to get help...omg...
J O E| 1:47 AM |
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-=| Sociopathic? |=-
| You Are 40% Sociopath |
 From time to time, you may be a bit troubled and a bit too charming for your own good. It's likely that you're not a sociopath... just quite smart and a bit out of the mainstream! |
J O E| 1:43 AM |
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-=| What is my EQ? |=-
| Your EQ is 107 |
 50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar. |
Hmmm... Average... not bad not bad...
J O E| 1:38 AM |
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-=| How Irish am I? |=-
| You're 45% Irish |
 You're probably less Irish than you think you are... But you're still more Irish than most. |
J O E| 1:29 AM |
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-=| Whih latin American country should i visit?... |=-
| You Should Visit Mexico |
 You can be as comfortable as you want, eating fast food and partying with English speakers in resort town. But if you're feeling brave, venture out to Mexico City - or explore the tropical Yucatan. |
J O E| 1:26 AM |
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-=| So how brutally honest am i? |=-
| You Are 56% Brutally Honest |
 Honesty is important to you, but generally, you try not to be brutal about it. You'll sugar coat the truth when you need to... and tell a white lie when necessary. |
J O E| 1:19 AM |
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-=| What does my sleeping position say abt me? |=-
| What Your Sleeping Position Says |
You are calm and rational. You are also giving and kind - a great friend. You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games. |
J O E| 1:15 AM |
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-=| Am i gentlemanly? |=-
| You Are 68% Gentleman |
 You are definitely a gentleman. You're very considerate and you have excellent manners. Occasionally, you slip and do something foolish... but usually no one notices! |
J O E| 1:14 AM |
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-=| So... Am i VAIN? |=-
| You Are 51% Vain |
 You're a little vain, but more than anything you have a healthy amount of confidence. Thinking the world of yourself is great. Just don't think less of those who aren't as pretty as you! |
Ok... this is evidence to say that there r more people who r more vain then me...=j
J O E| 1:07 AM |
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-=| What is my element? |=-
| Your Element Is Air |
 You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that! |
J O E| 1:04 AM |
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-=| What do people see in me? |=-
| Slow and Steady |
 Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it. |
Am i such a perfectionist? i guess there r stuff i do in spur of the momment, or should i say many stuff-s.
J O E| 12:56 AM |
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-=| What sort of artist would i be? |=-
| You Should Be Fashion Designer |
 Although you're offbeat and artistic, you have a good eye for trends You can figure out new incredible clothes to create... that will sell well! |
Never thought that the answer would be what im actually studying... hmmm...
J O E| 12:51 AM |
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-=| Am i a drama king? |=-
| You Are As Cool As They Come |
 Rational and relaxed, no one could accuse you of being dramatic. You roll with the punches, and nothing ever gets you too worked up. You are able to maintain perspective and see the big picture. And even if you're emotional inside, you don't let it show. You're great at keeping it together, and you're rewarded for that. People see you as an ideal friend, employee, and partner. |
J O E| 12:48 AM |
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-=| 3 question personality test... |=-
| Your Personality Is |
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours. |
J O E| 12:45 AM |
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-=| How much am i worth? |=-
| Your Life Is Worth... |
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Not intending to sell myself afterall... Whatever...
J O E| 12:18 AM |
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-=| Faces |=-
(Picture obtained from http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/40266046/)
Now that my theme at school is "self", I was forced to read Roland Barthes's writing and I find that it was really inspiring.
"Now, once I feel myself observed by the lens, everything changes: I constitute myself in the process of 'posing', I instantaneously make another body for myself, I transform myself in advance into an image."-Roland Barthes
He was writing about how he, or should I say everyone in majority, would become a different person infront of the camera. It is really true on how people actually look so different on lens and real life. For example if you don't believe me, a person might be used to slouching on a chair whenever that person seats on one, but very miraculously when a camera comes in, it is a instant reaction to seat upright and appear really poised.
I guess the whole reaction boils right down to impression and reputation. A picture is a freezed frame of a time which can never be obtained ever again even if it was a second later. And if a subject were to appear really un-glam, it would be recorded in that picture forever.
So the question to ask oneself is' Are we trying to be what we arn't?' 'Or are we actually are what we really are?'
So what if there are no cameras around, everyone's eyes are little windows to memories to be kept for a long long time.
J O E| 11:44 PM |
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-=| Finally |=-
After the o levels I was given a choice to choose whether to go to ITE/army or Laselle. I guess the first choice was out of the question, which actually signifies the fruit of life, what a bad representation, but heck it. I chose the fruit of the knowledge of good and evil.
The route to Laselle was a adventurous one, getting to know many people and even more knowledge, but most importantly my mind has been opened. I realized that things can be looked in 2 different perspectives, looked at the way it is or what it seems to be to you. I find it very ironic, the 2D, contextual... Teacher always asks us to look at things and ask ourselves what does the subject seem to you when you look at it. But our internal and external teacher always asks us to draw things the way it is and not what you think it is. Well I think they are a mixture of fine arts and design, which actually defines the good and evil of the fruit. Well I guess I will start out lots of argument of which is evil or which is good, I will leave it up for you to decide as it is just a metaphor used.
I feel that ever since the 7 months break plus the intruding of laselle has changed me, changed my character to another person. I have realised that when people asks for my point of view i will tend to be a critque and notice the every detail i can find and tries to correct them, call me a perfectionist, but if i am not, there won't be improvements.
I guess i aint a quiet guy anymore... was i ever quiet? But nevermind... I tend to think out loud nowadays and say my views more openly. Many people just cannot stand my criques or should i say bitchings as they are kind of pointing at a specific point of a subject, very hurtful.Anyway it's my mouth and it's your head to think if i'am right.
Talking about bitchings, have i always been bitching? or have i started bitching? I dun remember bitching in pri.1. I just saw myself as a boy who was pushed about in other's clutches. My sister says that it's part of growing up.Oh well, i guess that currently im in laselle and that i am showing off more of myself, more of the character i have kept in me and have not let out in the pass years. It's really suprising that i tend to restrain my crazy self to the church friends which i usually do. Maybe i'm learning more and more about myself each day and shall write up another post as i find out more.
J O E| 9:51 PM |
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-=| Pictures of uncle Kiong's house warming at Mt faber... |=-
J O E| 10:25 PM |
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-=| Apparel activity |=-
Wow! I feel so energized. I can still feel the excitement of my heart thumping very quickly. The fashion show was yesterday and it feels as if everything just started. It was a Friday where my contextual lesson was a beginning of a apparel activity. We were all sitted at the auditorium and we are being selected by the 2nd and 1st level students. I don't know if it is because I am sitted at the last row or am I really bad looking, but I was among the batch of "unselected". Since no one wants us, we have to attatch our selves among one of the available groups. I was quite lucky to get myself with the other classmates of mine, like Nelly, Brenna, Ben, Angelyn, Sheila and many others.
We went to the back alley of the school to start brainstorming under the theme retro and using old clothes and materials we intend to discard. I came up with the idea of using monochromic colours, from the idea of the monochrome TV. Then Brenna was thinking of using old uniforms, and Nelly thought that we should use a fairy tale or a famous novel as the spine to hold up our idea.
They planned to meet up on the next day, which was a Saturday to work the suits out. Damn! I had to go to church! Actually I was thinking to myself why do I want to go to church as there is no spiritual life in me, dazes in mid air when the pastor is talking, and does nothing after lunch? In fact the main motive of going to church is to have a fabulous lunch, "socialize" or should I say fellowship with the friends around and that is it. I feel that I should just go to school that sat afternoon and work the suit out.
Actually on Saturday itself I did not regret going to church, as I met Angeline. Yup! Angeline from primary school to secondary 3. That Angeline who went to wala wala college. I saw that girl and I was overjoyed, I did not expect to see her in Jurong and it was so coincidental that it was her last week in S'pore before she leaves for US again. It was a very quick 5min chat, but I guess it worths more then gold.
On Monday, I met up with Brenna as she is currently living in Sembawang. Anyways the first question she asked was what was my waist line. I told her that it was about 27 but all my pants are around 29-30... She wants me to be her model for her group. Man! She told me that all the guys who are slim are already taken, and I am the only one who can help her. She showed me a pair of tights and 'OMG!' I have to wear that around? Not knowing how the top looks like I was declining the request persistently.
When I finally got to see the top, it looks really flamboyant. It looks like those flamingo guys with lots of fluffy materials all over. Tried really hard to fit myself into the top, it felt really heavy and very hot. Jane, the group leader, came and looked at it for a while and she suggests that we should abandon this shirt and work another out. At this point of time I felt kind of happy, yet sad. Happy because luckily I did not come on Saturday, as all the efforts would have gone to waste. However at the same time, it could be my fault that the shirt turned out this way, as if I were there situation might just be better.
anyways we went to grab more materials from the room, and started to sew denim pockets together as patch work. We used a cut off sweater which looks like a caplet and sewed pockets in a formation of a trench coat. And it was the photoshoot day, the whole theme for us was a romeo and Juliet with a tinge of retro. And everyone was with real thick eye shadow and liners. The top was done last minute on a mannequin, when it came onto me it was really huge and lots of correction has to be done. So makeup was done on me while Brenna, Angelyn and Winston sews the top onto me. It was as if it was project run way in real life.
The most awkward situation was that I'm paired with Ayuni, and we are in the stage of where interaction was taking place. She had to be on the table and I was on the chair and a shoot of us looking at each other's eyes, that was the hardest. There were many times where we just bursted out laughing. The other scene was both of us standing by the tree with the touching of the hands thingy going on. We were talking with our lips in a smiley position like what actors and actresses always do in photoshoots.
Ayuni:"I'am so not going to let my parrents see me this way...I so need to blog this down, are u?"
Me:"Yeah I really need to get this jot down..."
The highlight was not just there, on Tuesday was the runway day. Going to school was a mad rush, waiting for my suit to arrive as the seams broke after the photo shoot. Run around to get the same hairdo and make up on, got my nails painted to get into the whole gothic theme. And it was exactly 3pm where the fashion show begins, our group was the first to walk down the run way, one of the lecturer was rushing us from the back. There was no practice for the walk, and everything went chaotic.
It was really fun but the removal of the makeup was the most difficult, they used the ultra long mascara on me as I have no lashes and it was waterproof. The eyeliner was scratched into my lids, but oh well everyone has to pay a price to get such treatment. It was very common for people to lose stuff on a fashion show, like one of the guys lost a scarf, i lost 5 bucks as I payed 10 bucks for a zinger meal which I could not eat because of the photoshoot. Oh well I just feel so happy after the runway, just like ever lasting adrenaline rushing through my veins.
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Name : Joel Xiang Desheng P3RS0N@L!TY
Personality : Flamboyant T@g W!SH3S 3M@!l CURR3NT M00D W3@TH3R F00T PR!NTS !N 3 S@nd R@D!0 ST@T!0NS P@ST R3CORDS L!NKS
DOB : 19th May 1988
Age : 19+
Height : 1.73++m
Weight : Abt 60kg
Zodiac : Dragon
Horroscope : Taurus
Fav Sports : Breathing exercises on the bed every night(snore)
Fav colour : Blue, silver, black
Fav things : Vintage looking stuff...
Hates : People who commands me to do anything
Worst habits : Talking back, bitching...
Best Habits : Obeys house rules
How do u relax : Bitching, complaining, vibrate my ear drums with sound waves from my disc man
One thing tat no one noes abt? : i'm Sentimental...
Three words 2 describe me : Rude Noisy Freak
One liner tat i'm most proud of : Being kind to your enemy means to be cruel to yourself
Moto in life : Look 4 a goal n strife hard
