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This is gonna be a hate entrie, so things written below r “trash”… so pls… DUN READ it as it is poison…
I’m very furious at the bloody skool’s computer…=/… some stupid Korean Student or was it China student installed some Chinese lettering formatting thingy… n I could not write any entrie yesterday… all my words appeared widely spaced…maybe the computer was actually kinda preventing me from writing this entrie or wad…
I have been thinking lots this weekend as many stuff has happened…n it’s all abt my dad… this dad of mine is really getting on my nerves…he is currently 50+ n is goin thru menopause… it is said tat when people get older they will go thru a 2nd childhood… he is always very jealous, destructive and full of assumptions…
Being 50 over years old, he has juz got a REAL job this year, as a security assistant… 4 the beginning of his life he juz worked at the Keppel ship yard… n then worked as a co porter 4 a long long time till he retired as a “sales man”… I feel tat even wif so much work experiences he has not really worked in a real job(never faces office politics b4)… I dun think he has ever received so much sarcastic remarks from the people in the community n stuff(hello… it’s the 21st century… everyone is affected by the business world)… facing so much stress he comes home n vend his anger on us at home by picking out small mistakes like forgetting to off the toilet light or maybe clearing the dinner boxes late… if nuttin is wrong at home he would keep on discriminating the tv’s programme (say it over n over again till someone tries gets annoyed n prove him wrong[to shut him up], to get some convo goin), saying tat it’s not according to God’s law…his principal of life is tat if it is not set up by Christians aka Adventist it is evil… wadever which is not from God is from the devil… although I know it’s stated in the bible n I’ve learnt it in bible lessons but juz tat he can’t put everything word 4 word….
I feel tat he is a jealous man… not like God being a jealous God… but a father being jealous of his wife, children… he used to not allow my mum n sis to buy bright coloured clothes like red, pink, yellow etc. but sum how it got out of hand… jealous of me getting to have lunch out wif my mum on fridaes… spending sat nites in relatives place till the wee hours in the morning… I get to eat chocolates n ice cream or maybe wear nice clothes(which he can't wear)…when my mum buys or does this stuff he gets real jealous n tries n do sumthin childish to get my mum’s attention… the white patch on my face is also one of his works… I wonder is it because he was jealous of my nice skin or my features… n oh yeah I heard from my mum tat I was born wif 2 side burns… n the nurses in the hospital finds me very cute… n when I reached home he shaved me bald… causing my hair to be thick n rough…. He disfigured me..
He is very destructive… he actually destroyed our house’s interior… by hanging lots of painting on all the walls till it is full…. Dunno wad he was up to… now the house looks very heavy….
He is very assumptious…. Thinking tat he is always rite n u r always wrong… he steals my chocolates from the fridge n anything nice I buy home… his reason is tat ur mum gave u the pocket money n I have the right to eat it… wadever stupid crap…. U noe wad old man… I HATE U…
Since young I was dragged to church n I hated it… u chose my clothes n my shoes n everything… it was NEVER my choice to go to church…. N it’s still not…. Bible studies was also never my choice… my mum searched 4 a bible teacher 4 me… n now they r askin 4 my baptism…. Wad should I do man…. Goin to church, skool n coming home has different masks to wear…n when they meet…. A disaster…
Im already 17 n I’m still not allowed to choose wad I want to do…. he is controlling my life juz like a 3 year old kid...These parents r driving me crazy…. N I dun think I can take the preasure any longer…. Sumbody save me outta here…. I noe this is not the worst misery… but I have enuff…..
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Name : Joel Xiang Desheng P3RS0N@L!TY
Personality : Flamboyant T@g W!SH3S 3M@!l CURR3NT M00D W3@TH3R F00T PR!NTS !N 3 S@nd R@D!0 ST@T!0NS P@ST R3CORDS L!NKS
DOB : 19th May 1988
Age : 19+
Height : 1.73++m
Weight : Abt 60kg
Zodiac : Dragon
Horroscope : Taurus
Fav Sports : Breathing exercises on the bed every night(snore)
Fav colour : Blue, silver, black
Fav things : Vintage looking stuff...
Hates : People who commands me to do anything
Worst habits : Talking back, bitching...
Best Habits : Obeys house rules
How do u relax : Bitching, complaining, vibrate my ear drums with sound waves from my disc man
One thing tat no one noes abt? : i'm Sentimental...
Three words 2 describe me : Rude Noisy Freak
One liner tat i'm most proud of : Being kind to your enemy means to be cruel to yourself
Moto in life : Look 4 a goal n strife hard
