-=| "I don't Know" |=-
It felt so weird this morning when my mother suddenly talked to me about EQ and how important it was in the society. Soon the conversation lead to my habit of saying 'I don't know', and that it creates an impression that I don't know what I want to do with my life and stuff. I remember that I once wrote this in my O levels English prelims, if I am not wrong the topic was 'What good habits do you have in common with my siblings'. Both my sister and I just cannot decide on what we want to eat and stuff. And anyway, one thing about me saying 'I don't know' and that it has became my habit is that maybe it was because I used to say what I want and feel about stuff, but people around me just does not like that idea. And that has caused me to say 'I don't know' to hear what the people around me want and feel before I make my decision, and therefore I think it is a good habit. I wrote something like that, and I kind of flunk that paper.
She continued blabbering about how when Australians turn 18 and they are on their own. I feel that those Indonesian who went over to Australia to study when they are in their 15 or 16s could easily finish their degree by their 20s. And that they could easily move out and rent an apartment somewhere out there with some of their savings, they might even have already owned their own car. And that because of the western influences they are independent and they think they do not need their parents and so that is where all the problems start. Like rude to parents, abandoning of the parents, and many other social problems.
Currently I am surviving on my own, and my parents are providing me with lodging, and dinner. And I have vowed to myself that when one day when I make it big and I have an ability to survive on my own, I would just move out and pay them what I owe them with interest. I think my mentality is very childish but I guess they have driven me too far.
I have a feeling that there are spies around who tells my parents what I wrote on my blog, or maybe my mum is a frequent reader of my blog and that she is really angry at my previous entry. But I have realized that both of them seemed to always discuss about strategies on how to subdue me, the demon. Ahhaz, well, I'm all gamed to see what you both have for me.
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Name : Joel Xiang Desheng P3RS0N@L!TY
Personality : Flamboyant T@g W!SH3S 3M@!l CURR3NT M00D W3@TH3R F00T PR!NTS !N 3 S@nd R@D!0 ST@T!0NS P@ST R3CORDS L!NKS
DOB : 19th May 1988
Age : 19+
Height : 1.73++m
Weight : Abt 60kg
Zodiac : Dragon
Horroscope : Taurus
Fav Sports : Breathing exercises on the bed every night(snore)
Fav colour : Blue, silver, black
Fav things : Vintage looking stuff...
Hates : People who commands me to do anything
Worst habits : Talking back, bitching...
Best Habits : Obeys house rules
How do u relax : Bitching, complaining, vibrate my ear drums with sound waves from my disc man
One thing tat no one noes abt? : i'm Sentimental...
Three words 2 describe me : Rude Noisy Freak
One liner tat i'm most proud of : Being kind to your enemy means to be cruel to yourself
Moto in life : Look 4 a goal n strife hard
