-=| What is home? Really? |=-
People say that home is a refuge, a place where members feel safe. But I disagree. Maybe it is due to the renovations, people are not having enough sleep, and therefore pressure is building up. And this dad of mine is going through his male menopause, being very fussy about things around him, making a big fuss out of a molehill, or maybe he just wants to vent his pressure through blaming helpless victims. Just like the female business manager who works with eye power and if anything were to go wrong the manager would scold the employee like the employee killed the manager's most loved pet.
People say that saying at home and not going anywhere would be so boring, funny thing is that because of him everyday seems to be like a drama episode, as there would always be a major battle every night. For example 2nights ago was about 5 bucks, yesterday was a tub of sugar, I wonder what is today, the wall is not painted the way he wants it to be? Too colourful, like the 7th month stage, must be more mellow like a church. I was really happy that I did not go for drama practice this week, if were to go, no one would have stood up for me and have blamed all the problems on me.
I feel that kindness does not pay, so why be so kind? I feel that life is like a drama and if it were to be so, the good people are always being bullied, so why choose to be kind in the first place? So lets be bad and bluff the good people that we have issues, nobody is perfect, everyone have their own sad stories and therefore take pity on us for it is because of bad experiences that molded us to be like this. It is not our fault. *Puppy dog pitiful face*
It is just because of him that destroys the peace at home, I finally realize why do children send their parents to the old age home and leave them there, and I might be planning to do that for my dad.
I feel that without my dad I might have stumbled into church by myself and would have been baptized by now. I do not know if I am using my dad as an excuse to hold myself back but he is one of my reasons why I am still not baptized. My life is so messed up, how do I actually straighten things out? It is not my fault, but why am i so stressed?
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Name : Joel Xiang Desheng P3RS0N@L!TY
Personality : Flamboyant T@g W!SH3S 3M@!l CURR3NT M00D W3@TH3R F00T PR!NTS !N 3 S@nd R@D!0 ST@T!0NS P@ST R3CORDS L!NKS
DOB : 19th May 1988
Age : 19+
Height : 1.73++m
Weight : Abt 60kg
Zodiac : Dragon
Horroscope : Taurus
Fav Sports : Breathing exercises on the bed every night(snore)
Fav colour : Blue, silver, black
Fav things : Vintage looking stuff...
Hates : People who commands me to do anything
Worst habits : Talking back, bitching...
Best Habits : Obeys house rules
How do u relax : Bitching, complaining, vibrate my ear drums with sound waves from my disc man
One thing tat no one noes abt? : i'm Sentimental...
Three words 2 describe me : Rude Noisy Freak
One liner tat i'm most proud of : Being kind to your enemy means to be cruel to yourself
Moto in life : Look 4 a goal n strife hard
