-=| Who am i? |=-
It has been a while since I had blogged again. I was too busy to even come online, or should I say pay a visit to the computer lab. I am getting busier as the days go by, and I have a lot of back lots to work on. Sometimes I ask myself if it is all worth it, damaging my health by staying up late to finish up all the assessments. Nowadays when I look at myself in the mirror I do not know who am I. I guess I have lost my identity through all the things I am doing. I do not know who am I. I guess it is another transition period for me, a very critical situation.
There are many things that are bothering me right now and I do not know how to solve them. Probably when I write them out, the answer is just set there in front of me.
There is so much work to do, yet so little time. Ahhh! No time to finish! How? Is this what I want to do in future? Slog my life away. I have no inspiration and my brain is dead.
No time to finish work and there is no time to spend with friends. Man1 I am losing out with all the fun, but when I do I am lagging behind.
Just a few weeks ago this question struck me, why am I going to church? I should not go to church because I do not intend to go there anyway. Going to church seems to be a waste of time. Everyone wakes up early on the Saturday morning just to work on his or her projects and I am there at church not knowing why am I there. Sometimes I ask myself why am I going to church when my heart is not there, why am I wasting time on things I am not interested in. Sometimes I wonder if church in killing my career in studies or are my studies killing my Christian life.
This busy schedule is killing me. I guess I do not even have time for self reflection. I am so losing it. I do not know who am I. And this is a dangerous problem in the design industry. Could someone alleviate me from such pain? Help me! Someone?
:)
~sheryl
: 9:05 PM
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Name : Joel Xiang Desheng P3RS0N@L!TY
Personality : Flamboyant T@g W!SH3S 3M@!l CURR3NT M00D W3@TH3R F00T PR!NTS !N 3 S@nd R@D!0 ST@T!0NS P@ST R3CORDS L!NKS
DOB : 19th May 1988
Age : 19+
Height : 1.73++m
Weight : Abt 60kg
Zodiac : Dragon
Horroscope : Taurus
Fav Sports : Breathing exercises on the bed every night(snore)
Fav colour : Blue, silver, black
Fav things : Vintage looking stuff...
Hates : People who commands me to do anything
Worst habits : Talking back, bitching...
Best Habits : Obeys house rules
How do u relax : Bitching, complaining, vibrate my ear drums with sound waves from my disc man
One thing tat no one noes abt? : i'm Sentimental...
Three words 2 describe me : Rude Noisy Freak
One liner tat i'm most proud of : Being kind to your enemy means to be cruel to yourself
Moto in life : Look 4 a goal n strife hard
